Getting What You Need

On January 8, 2013 I made a commitment to myself, one that I have made many times before and failed.  As I made this vow to myself I hope and pray that the light will finally come on, and my body will respond in kind.  I want to be able to run and jump and lead an all around active lifestyle.  I want to be able to pass on an attitude of health to my son, so he doesn’t get caught in the same trap I have been in for the last 38 years.  I don’t want him to go through the ridicule I went through in my school years, being the FAT kid.  I have been the butt of many jokes, and heard the whispers in the halls at school and what no one realized is the words that I said to myself were worse then anything anyone could have said to me.

I am happy to be taking on this journey again as I feel that no matter how long it takes me to reach my goal, by starting today I am one step closer then if I had not started at all!  We live in a world of instant gratification and that makes this all the more difficult.  There are going to be ups and downs and this isn’t always going to be filled with joy and laughter.  There has to be some sweat and tears in order to surpass your biggest demons.  There are things all around that will try and defeat you before you ever even try to succeed, so I am walking this path minute by minute because that is what I am able to handle.

For the first time in my life I am finally doing this for me, not because my parents wanted me too, not because the kids at school ridiculed me, not because I wanted to be a smaller size but because I am ready to be a better me!  I want to learn to love myself and hopefully be able to inspire those around me and help them reach their goals, whatever they may be.  I look for things that will inspire me every day and help me get a positive attitude about what ever the day may bring.   So today I leave you with this video, which leaves me covered in goose bumps and tears running down my face and with the sense that I can do whatever I put my mind too!