How is it that it becomes easier to give of your body and not your soul. I am in a loving relationship that I hold dear to my heart, but there is always this yearning and desire to seek out other men. I am not sure if this is part of who I am or the years have conditioned my soul to think that I am not worthy to be the only one.
I never realized all these years of bed hopping would only lead me to want more! I always told myself I want a relationship someone I can come home too and share my world with, and all I can think about is trying to have sex wtih another man. My head and heart knows that this is not right, nor is it truly what I want.
I seem to have intimacy problems when it comes to the man that I share my life with. I do not want to do all of the fun sexual things that I was doing before. I have realized that while I can fully love someone, I cannot love someone and feel a sexual desire toward them. We have sex, but it does not fulfill those same desires as when I was single.
Some of it I attribute to just being familiar and that as people we are always seeking out the unfamiliar. How does one turn the passion back on to the person they love? Am I the only one who works this way? How do I break free of two worlds I want to call one!
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